This song is part of my 2010 album, In Rewind. It is an entry from my musical journal. As we grow older we look back at all the things we've been taught, and we wonder why the familiar words, the prayers - life - is so empty. Somehow a cold hand has reached in and taken all meaning away. Why are we here? For what purpose? And then we wonder why even have the questions? Confusion is the devil's playground. This song was me during 2009. I was trapped on a playground of confusion, not sure why I did what I did, or who I really was. But my greatest fear was that I was losing my faith, losing my hope. This was my desperate cry to know the answers to my 'whys'. And God answered. Forgiveness and love can change us like nothing else, and God is all about forgiving and loving.
Why do the things I've clung to for years
Cease to satisfy
Why to the words all too familiar
Leave me dead and dry
Where is the soul behind all the answers
Where is the heart that beats for what's right
Where is the hope, the faith, the love
That's supposed to breathe over us for life
I wanna know that I still hope in You
I wanna see that I still believe in You
When all I've found gets turned around
In the midst of my muddled mind
When the words I say, all the things I pray
Are just the same as they were yesterday
I wanna know, I wanna see
How do I silence the lies that destroy me
That are ringing in my ears
Where can I hold so that I won't let go
When I'm chased by all my fears
Where is the soul behind all the answers
Where is the heart that beats for what's right
Where is the hope, the faith, the love
That's supposed to breathe over us for life
I wanna know that I still hope in You
I wanna see that I still believe in You
When all I've found gets turned around
In the midst of my muddled mind
When the words I say, all the things I pray
Are just the same as they were yesterday
I wanna know, I wanna see
When every step I take is met
With forgiveness and with love
When every breath's another chance
To meet You face to face and to stand
That's when I know
That's when I see
That I still hope (in You Lord)
I still believe
In You